Why? Probably one of the most common reasons people cannot sleep. Stress. I had tried to relax after working my 6th day in a row, avoided turning on my computer when I got home. I just watched the boob tube until my brain finally quieted down and I dozed off on the couch. But then ~ midnight rolled around and on my way to bed from the couch it hit me! I HAD SO MUCH TO DO!!
Thus my brain and body said - NO SLEEP FOR YOU. I mindlessly did the dishes, cleaned the kitchen, the tried to find my brain and write all of my 'to-do's on the message board. Then I felt compelled to turn on my computer, and I printed off the past 4 months of bank statements and proofed some graphics and worked on my blog. Finally, I forced myself to bed at 2:30 am.
The alarm going off at 6:00 am hurt. But I got up and did the normal morning rituals, except in a slight dream like state. Before I could get through my coffee, my head drooped onto the dining room table and I was out.
Insomnia (in-SOM-ne-ah) is a common sleep disorder. People who have insomnia have trouble falling asleep, staying asleep, or both. As a result, they may get too little sleep or have poor-quality sleep. They may not feel refreshed when they wake up.
I think I am not the common insomniac, as it seems I had no trouble falling asleep on the dining table. I stayed asleep there too, for quite a while. But I certainly did not feel refreshed - neither at 6:00 am nor when I pulled my head out of the puddle of drool on the dining table at 8:30 am. I got up and was in a daze until I forced myself to get ready to meet an artist downtown. I got through the afternoon just wanting to be home, so when I finally DID get home, and sat down - dozed off again.
By evening, another late dinner, and the pile of clean laundry staring at me to be folded, I realized I neglected to do the majority of the items on my to-do list. Not accomplishing more than HALF of what was on my list. More stress.
Maybe someday I can experience the days I used to enjoy again. Easy mornings browsing the computer, taking the time to write thoughtful, inspiring things. Taking great pictures to go along with my witty writing. Maybe soon I can sit down and pick the charms and yarns, and get to making Toekini's, then enjoy the sunlight outside while I take pictures of my new Toekini's. I slept good after days like that - and if I didn't, I knew I could take a little time during the day to recover.
Now-a-days, that luxury is gone. I am at the shop or working on shop stuff for 8 to 10 hours a day, with just one day off. My one day is almost always spent working on something I couldn't get done because I was at the shop the other days. I feel like I am working so hard that sometimes the returns are hard to see.
I know that I was stressed before we opened Blue Rage of Asheville, trying to find a direction and path, but now that I am on that path, I almost wish for those old stressful days where I enjoyed the time with few deadlines, time with the kids doing fun stuff, and most of all sleeping much better than I do now.
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