Be free-floating, allowing the situation to surround you, and be in it. Take in the full surroundings, including the temperature of the water.
This may bring incredible clarity, presence and focus. This is what is means to be a jellyfish.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Walking on Wednesday ~ When the Heck did THAT Happen?

'Take time to stop and smell the flowers' they say. 

Yes, that sounds like a good idea, but every time I stop and take a minute, I say to myself "When the heck did THAT happen?!?" Things are moving so fast these days, events that happen often take me by surprise.

For example, my oldest is now in his second week of college! Yes, well into classes and settled in. I know we drove him there, unloaded all his things, said our goodbyes and drove home without him. (all in one day too, 5 1/2 hour drive each way. No wonder it is all a blur.) 
See me hanging on tight....
when did he get so tall???
I look at the pictures and think 'When the heck did my little Cuddle Bear become a man?' It seems like it happened so fast, the last 18 years.....

Then today, I nearly fell over when my youngest walked in the kitchen like this:  
Sir, yes Sir!
He is in JROTC, and uniforms are the dress each Wednesday. But when did he become such a handsome young man? (even if he isn't was early after all....)
I know life is busy, and it goes on no matter if you pay attention or not. 
Behind the scenes at the photo shoot.

Like when I realized my daughter become a beautiful woman. It hit me seeing her on that photo shoot last weekend, and then her telling me about the upcoming school musical she is so excited for. Add to that her new little best buddy she is babysitting for and suddenly I realize she has become a wonderful young woman. No longer the 'little buttercup' that used to giggle when daddy sung her his version of that song. 
Daddy's Little Buttercup

Then, I flip through the local paper, The Mountain Express, and see this.
Oh, I know I experienced the torture of posing for that little picture of me there for Blue Rage of Asheville's Women in Business Ad - we took over 20 pictures before there was a decent one. 

But when I see it in print, it hits me - I am in the newspaper!! Although it was years in the making, suddenly there I am, a Woman in Business in this great city of Asheville.

Sometimes it it just too much for me. I get overwhelmed with all that has happened, changed, or has to be done. Sometimes I just can't take it.
Daddy and his Buttercup.
Thank goodness I have my hubby to keep me going. He is there making fun of me when I get too sappy, bringing me back to reality. He is the one who calms me when I start freaking out. He is the voice of reason when I am the voice of emotion. We are just a year or so from our 20th anniversary - when the heck did THAT happen???

It seems that when I wasn't looking, so much has changed! But really I am looking, I am noticing and enjoying every minute. If I don't, then I really WILL miss it - it does happen so fast.

So DO stop, smell those flowers, take those pictures, notice the small things. 
Be Batman for a few minutes.....
It is those small things that make the most difference.
Who says back to school shopping isn't fun?
It is the smallest pleasures that gets us through. Through to the next time we take a minute and think ''When the heck did THAT happen?"

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Music Monday!

Inspired by a photo shoot I was a spectator for over the weekend, there could be no other song for today.

Ray's Bags are available at Blue Rage of Asheville and Ray Designs.

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Walking on Wednesday ~ A Day Off ??

I have decided that really doesn't exist for me anymore.
I try. I do.
I try to take a day off - to not think about things that have to be done, people I have to contact, things I have to price at the shop, about ordering inventory, about chores.  
This is what the laundry chore  feels like....

I do try to just do something enjoyable and relax.

Yesterday, it was laundry and dishes, and blogging and checking email, shipping a package (sale from shop), and grocery store.

This is really where I want the hammock to be.....
When I was finally ready to go out and sit in the hammock to just sit and enjoy the warmth of  the sunshine and do nothing else ~ it was taken by my son. 

So I went back in and took up more chores. By the time he left the hammock, I didn't feel like sitting there anymore and was consumed with the good 'ole daily stresses of 'what should I make for dinner tonight?' with the 'oh my god there are so many dirty dishes...I wish I had a dishwasher' and the 'I hope it was ok that I washed a silk skirt in the machine'.

All of this made me think 'does a day off really exist?!?'
and since I am the only day off.

For me, not really. And I bet many of you feel the same way.
Especially us mom's, us who work full time, us who try to make the most out of every day.

Especially those of us who have taken on the burden of a small business owner. Or is it the freedom of a small business owner?

I decided Tuesday would be the day to close the shop. Yes, it is nice that I decide when to open, when to close. I decide what to have in the shop, and what not to. 
I set the schedule, I say how it goes. 
(OK, hubby does have a say too...but you all know that I is really 'us' after almost 20 years of marriage, right?)
with great power comes great responsibility....
Is this freedom? YES. Is this a burden? YES! 
But frankly, it is a burden that brings a sense of accomplishment, satisfaction. (Mixed in with panic and uncertainty.)
Happiness comes in many forms.....

We moan, we complain, but still I only have to answer to myself, well and my husband and kids. We are in this together, and thus should have to answer to each other.

So every time I start to think how tough it is, how much I have to do, how I just want one day off.....I remember this is what I chose, all of it. 

My "day off", even if it doesn't feel like a day off, is all up to me. 

And I wouldn't have it any other way. 

Monday, August 20, 2012

Music Monday! Crimson and Clover, Over and Over!

As I try to get back into a normal schedule, I am really loving this song and this long version of it. It is a groovy way to start the week. Hopefully a nice and normal week.

With school starting, the oldest now off at college, the shop duties taking up most of my waking hours, it is hard to feel consistency these days.

This week, I am hoping to really get back to normal even if it is a new normal. I am ready for the comfort of repetition and steady schedule rather than the chaos of jam packed days in ten different directions.

Crimson and Clover, over and over should set the tone.

This song was written in an effort to change the band's direction, and it experimented with sounds and effects. Another fitting theme for this week. Embracing a new direction at the shop, and finding a schedule that will fit some aspects of the old schedule I was comfortable with. 

Happy Monday and here's to new beginnings and old ways.