Be free-floating, allowing the situation to surround you, and be in it. Take in the full surroundings, including the temperature of the water.
This may bring incredible clarity, presence and focus. This is what is means to be a jellyfish.

Thursday, November 20, 2014

Thursday Thought of the Day ~ "Does this mean I am getting old?"

**I wrote this post way back last winter. I never finished it, or published it. It is still mostly relevant today, so here you go. Updates are found between these astericks. **

We don't often realize it, when we have matured. When we have learned enough of life to know certain things and thus have an air of comfort in our own bodies, ways, abilities. It often happens slowly, and one day we realize we have matured. 

For me, it hit me when my daughter needed help with her outfit.

My daughter came rushing to me one morning, as she was getting ready for school. "Can I borrow that black and white scarf, the one I gave you?" she asked excitedly. "Of course" I say, always happy when I think I am cool enough that my daughter wants to wear my stuff, even though she gave it to me. 
**Since originally writing this, my daughter is happily in college, maturing like crazy, growing so much it is hard for me to see her as the wonderful young adult she is turning in to.**

Then I think, "oh, crud, where is it? I haven't worn that since last Spring!"  I tell her where I think it is, she says ok and then comes the "Can you de-tangle this" she asks quickly as she dropped a tangled necklace in my lap.
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Not even half way into my coffee, and I have a complicated detangling puzzle to sort out, plus think of where I put an article of clothing. Did I mention my closet is a disaster? 

So I set to the necklace, and it suddenly occurs to me that I must be older and wiser, because I can calmly set forth to de-tangle a tiny chain knowing I can do it if I take my time and carefully work on it. I got it detangled before she found my scarf!

Old memories of panic and frustration of such things flow into my head, as I remember a time when I was like my daughter, thinking I was unable to get the knots out of any piece of chain, and every time I tried, I gave up.

More memories come to me as I remember myself frantically pulling every last thing out of my high school closet to find one shoe. 
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After I finish detangling the necklace, I calmly get up, go to my closet, stand there a minute, then reach under a stack of clothes and pull out my unseen scarf. When did I become that calm, cool, collected, know-it-all mother? 

Well, I have had years of practice, with hubby and oldest son not being able to find anything right in front of their faces. But this was different. These tasks were things I remember rushing through when I was my daughter's age. I never did de-tangle those necklaces before I moved out. 

I thought I would cringe at the thought of being that old mamma who handles everything cool as a cucumber. But honestly, I was quite proud. I was relieved, in a way, that I could show my daughter these things can be done calmly, carefully. (She is a little less than graceful with things that should be handled carefully to begin with)

So yes, I am getting old I guess. At forty something, with 3 teenagers, I guess I am old. To them anyways. But to me, I am still young.  Almost all my friends just had kids 5 years ago, so I am seeing them as I was 15 years ago. 

I am submitting my resumes, like I did fresh out of college.
I have taken up running, similar to my addiction to aerobics back in college. I am uncertain about my future, but now I also share the uncertainty of my children's future. 
**I have since found a job, and so incredible thankful I don't have those old stresses of 'will they call for an interview?' I am glad to be old and settled in to a steady paycheck. **

I am re-defining my life yet again, forging a path that will make my life, our lives, better. At the same time, I have lived this all before, I have brought my children to adulthood, where they themselves are forging a path that will make their lives better. 
**I am now certain my future is just what I want it to be: a less stressful enjoyment of life.  And excited to see where theirs lead.**
I am old, but I am still young. I have the experience, and some wisdom, but I feel like I have so much ahead of me. 

I hope it feels like this all the way until I am 90.

Monday, November 10, 2014

Music Monday! Always Look On The Bright Side Of Life



Wow, 
I don't even want to think about how long it has been since I blogged.
I don't even want to go through all the trials and tribulations we have gone through to get us to this point in our lives.
(Let me tell you, when I sit and think about it, I am amazed at all the crap I have gone through, all the hard work I have done, and so many, many failures, difficulties, and frikin crazy bitch people I have had to deal with!)

I am actually quite amazed we have made it here.

Here, being a place where I wake up and am so thankful for the beauty around me.
Here, being a place where stress is so much less than it was a mere year ago.
Here, being a place where I can actually understand that I would not be here unless I went through all that crap. (well, and also wouldn't be here without the help of family and friends to get me through all that crap)

All those here's are a state of mind, really. 

A state of mind knowing all the hard work and pain and frustration paid off.
And knowing I didn't give up, I always knew better things would come.
I always try to see the bright side of things, and now I know that eventually the bright side is what faces you every day, as long as you continue to focus on it and keep going until you reach it.

So, this Music Monday focuses on that power of thinking, that philosphy that can really pull you through. 

Look on the Bright Side 
- and also, so important - 
Never Give Up.

Okay, maybe not for those guys in the video, but at least they had a catchy tune to send them off.

Now let's all whistle......

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Thursday Thought of the Day ~ The Secret of Change

Source: fashionablepins.com
I am actually a bit tired of the new at the moment. 
EVERYTHING has been new, again and again and again. 

Another new bed to sleep in, new kitchen to get used to, new foods to try, a new (old) car, new roads to learn, new people to meet, new internet codes to set up, new phones to hook up, packing a suitcase again.

I am so ready to settle in and have some things get old again.
I am ready for my space to become familiar.

I long to be able to wake up in the middle of the night and know where I am! 
(Still takes me a minute or two to figure it out)

Building the new is exhausting.

But...totally worth it.
Source: Raige Creations

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Thursday Thought of the Day ~ This Too Shall.........

Source: Jacqueline via Pinterest
A bit unlike my recent blatherings of how wonderful life is and how good things are going?

Yes.

But I have realized one thing:

No matter where you go, no matter how hard you try to be positive, there are some things that just suck!

I will give you three things you will most likely wholeheartedly agree that universally, totally SUCK:

Utility Companies
Used Car Salesmen
Insurance Companies

No matter where, when, what other things are going on, these things ALWAYS suck. 

The key is to always remember....
source: Jamie via Pinterest

Monday, July 7, 2014

Music Monday! Hotel California...Caribbean Style....


Yes,
I am still here.
I have emerged from the chaos.
I have survived the incredibly hellish move, the journey over land and sea, the displacement to an entirely new (yet familiar) place.

I have survived the 3 months of preparing for the move, the sorting and purging and packing, the hellish week of emptying and cleaning the house, the day of travel on 2 hours of sleep, the 2 weeks in a resort hotel right next to the Jet Ski hut, the 3 weeks of living out of a suitcase, the strange beds and kitchens where you don't know where anything is, the start of a new job. We have survived the search for a new place to live, a new car to drive, a new life to settle in to. 

We landed in the world of the tropics, steel bands, beaches, and a slightly more laid back lifestyle. A lifestyle we haven't enjoyed for more than ten years.

I sometimes have to pinch myself, wondering if this is all a dream. I am slightly suspicious when things keep falling into place, and working out as we need them to. I think, 'wow, that is just what we need, and it is right here in front of us! How come it is all working out this time?'

But it is, and I am trying not to question it too much. Instead of being skeptical, I am attributing our success to all the hard work and effort we put in to get us to this point. 

It is strange though. We are actually getting what we want...a concept that we are a bit unfamiliar with. It is a peculiar concept to be sure, but we have endured much more extraordinary things, so I think we can make it through this.

And as we get more settled, you should see me back to writing, blogging, and creating. One thing at a time. 

With that, I am going to live it up, and get myself to the pool, because, well, why not?

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Angel Food Cupcakes and Other Necessary Creations

Yes, you read that right.
I made Angel Food Cupcakes.
Yes, they were from a box, and all I had to do was add water.
Not the picture of delicious made-from-scratch Angel Food Cakes, which really are the best, but a necessity in our current situation.

I have to empty out the entire kitchen this weekend, and I don't want to throw away a bunch of perfectly good food (well, mostly good food), so I am trying to creatively cook up anything that is left in the freezer, fridge, and cupboards, with the remaining kitchen utensils that I have not yet packed.

I found a box of Angel Food Cake mix in the back of the kitchen cupboard. (Okay, it had passed the expiration date by a month or 4, but hubby was fine with it, and since I only had to add water and there were no creepy crawlies rooting in the mix, I said 'Why not?')

I should mention too that Angel Food Cake is the only cake hubby will eat...so I had to make it.

Oh, and I should mention too that I have had a checkered past with Angel Food Cake. The first one I ever tried to make from scratch, with a recipe my mother in law lovingly gave to me (she makes very delicious Angel Food Cakes). 

It turned out like a brownie-doughnut. Not fluffy, tall and airy. 
No, it was like a short, round brownie. 

This was not how Angel Food Cake should be. Not at all.But amazingly hubby LOVED it. He even asks me to make it again like that, but honestly I have no idea what I did wrong. I have never duplicated it. 

So here I had a box of Angel Food Cake, and a hubby who was insistent I should make it and not throw it away. Fine.
BUT.
I had already packed the bundt pan and the mixer.

What to do? 
I had cupcake liners and cupcake pans still unpacked, a big bowl, and a spatula. 

I lined the pans, and man did I MIX! I didn't really know my arm could move that fast. 
YOU try to imitate a mixer. 

I amused myself actually. I felt like those food network competitors when they hand mix to make whip cream on a competition show. So what that I was in my pajamas.....

I also had to guess at the cooking time. I may have guessed slightly wrong, so the end result certainly isn't 'Pin-Worthy' but certainly quite edible, and even tasty! 
Single Serving Sized Angel Food Cake.
They don't look fabulous.
Not Pin-Worthy for sure.
But still edible and pretty tasty.
Today we are going to drizzle some of the jam I found in the back of the cupboard (see last photo) on some of them and have some fruit-topped angel food cupcakes.

And tonight, we are having Ramen Noodle Pork Bowl. I just made that up too. I found too much Ramen, and actually have not yet cooked that pork because it is kinda small. We will see how it turns out. I just can't throw away perfectly good food. 
Too much Ramen, not enough Pork.
But necessity dictates something yummy out of this.
I also found these things hidden, still perfectly good so why throw them away? Perhaps Ramen Pork Beet Bowl??
Beets, Mulberry Jam and Plum Sauce.
Need to Use...Must be creative....
At any rate, it is challenging to come up with tasty dishes using things you don't normally use. Ah the fun of moving, moving with only a suitcase or two and then sending for the rest of your things that you have meticulously packed and stored. 

Fun? Wow. I will be so glad when it is finished. When we are done, and I don't have to work jam and beets and Ramen into my dinner cooking. 

Bon Appetite. 

Monday, May 26, 2014

Music Monday! Craigslist

It has been almost an obsession lately.
I hate it, but I love it at the same time.
Craigslist.
Of course, Weird Al had something to say about Craigslist.


I have listed a good many things on Craigslist, after our massive purging over the past few months, and also years ago when we last moved.
Things we didn't want or need anymore, things we decided we couldn't move with us, things the kids have grown out of, furniture, cars, motorcycles, tv's. (Sadly, no slightly used sombrero to throw in.) 

Why give them away when you can get a little dinero?

So I listed, and yes I fielded MANY scams, dealt with ignorant and difficult people, even had someone try to return an item after picking up and taking home and fiddling with it. (I won't go into details about our newbie mistake years ago, like taking a check from someone wanted by the police for check fraud and writing bad checks)

I have had email after email, asking for explanations and haggling prices. And giving directions for pick up - I have never asked out loud so often why some people don't have GPS! (I am notoriously bad at giving directions....)

All of these the 'hate' part of the love/hate feelings I have for Craigslist.

But I do love it too, because for the most part the people I have dealt with have been great! They get something they wanted at a price they are happy with, I get rid of something we didn't want and get a little something for it. 

The added bonus is I don't have to put it in my car and take it anywhere, they come to me!

All a great thing when my days have been filled with the big change in our lives. It makes it easier to get rid of things, really.

I also feel that I am much smarter and more savvy in dealing with people after these experiences. I got pretty good at spotting a scam, there were certainly many examples I fielded. 

In case you might be interested in the listings I have left....here they are!

Verizon Wireless Jet Pack WiFi Hotspot

iDog Soft Speakers - Set of 2

PS3 Tony Hawk Ride video game, board, and connector

Basketball Hoop - Sand Filled

Grid Wall Display or Storage

Rampage BMX System 20 Hard Tail Bicycle

Carrera DSY 100 Mountain Bike

And there may be more! 
Hubby just mentioned wanting to list some paint, 2 army jackets, and something else I forgot because I have so many things going on in my head.

So, thank you Craigslist, for the space to unload crap. 
Isn't it great to have one place to advertise your eclectic collection of trash TREASURE??
Even though it is a love/hate experience, overall, it has worked out pretty good. And thank you Weird Al for a relevent-to-me parody of a great band
Hope I didn't just jinx myself and now get a line of terrible people to deal with.....