I try. I do.
I try to take a day off - to not think about things that have to be done, people I have to contact, things I have to price at the shop, about ordering inventory, about chores.
|This is what the laundry chore feels like....|
I do try to just do something enjoyable and relax.
Yesterday, it was laundry and dishes, and blogging and checking email, shipping a package (sale from shop), and grocery store.
|This is really where I want the hammock to be.....|
So I went back in and took up more chores. By the time he left the hammock, I didn't feel like sitting there anymore and was consumed with the good 'ole daily stresses of 'what should I make for dinner tonight?' with the 'oh my god there are so many dirty dishes...I wish I had a dishwasher' and the 'I hope it was ok that I washed a silk skirt in the machine'.
All of this made me think 'does a day off really exist?!?'
|and since I am the only employee...no day off.|
For me, not really. And I bet many of you feel the same way.
Especially us mom's, us who work full time, us who try to make the most out of every day.
Especially those of us who have taken on the burden of a small business owner. Or is it the freedom of a small business owner?
I decided Tuesday would be the day to close the shop. Yes, it is nice that I decide when to open, when to close. I decide what to have in the shop, and what not to.
I set the schedule, I say how it goes.
(OK, hubby does have a say too...but you all know that I is really 'us' after almost 20 years of marriage, right?)
|with great power comes great responsibility....|
But frankly, it is a burden that brings a sense of accomplishment, satisfaction. (Mixed in with panic and uncertainty.)
|Happiness comes in many forms.....|
We moan, we complain, but still I only have to answer to myself, well and my husband and kids. We are in this together, and thus should have to answer to each other.
So every time I start to think how tough it is, how much I have to do, how I just want one day off.....I remember this is what I chose, all of it.
My "day off", even if it doesn't feel like a day off, is all up to me.
And I wouldn't have it any other way.